import 4.code.options;
import 4.code.about;

class Header{

public void title(){

String fullTitle = "/adv/ - Advice";
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public void menu();

public void board();

public void goToBottom();

public void refresh(a);

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class Thread extends Board{
public void Sexwithadictator...howtoIgetoverit/adv/?(OP Anonymous){

String fullTitle = "Sex with a dictator...how to I get over it /adv/?";
int postNumber = "19766382";
String image = "D40B59A4-3DF7-4DDA-9462-61561FE97B58.jpg";
String date = "07/11/18(Wed)02:52:47";
String comment = "Hello /adv/, my name is Anna.

In 1988 when I was 15 I had an affair with Colonel Muammar Gaddafi. I recently shared my story on /b/ and they advised me to make an account on Reddit to tell my story. I posted my experience on r/confession and suddenly my inbox was flooded with questions. (You can read my story here: https://www.reddit.com/r/confession/comments/8urt8h/e_late/?st=JJCHP6RP&sh=afa21041)

All that being said I didn’t really get into how this has effected me psychologically, as a person. I haven’t ever told anyone about my experience up until now (outside of my parents who knew), I guess I’ve always been afraid of judgement. And to be honest I’ve always felt like I can’t talk about it, it’s so damn painful, but at the same time I feel so compelled to, just to talk to somebody. I guess that’s why I’m posting here, I really did want to come across as a whiny little bitch on my other subs. I’m a pretty mellow person and I prefer showing that side of me mostly.

These last few years have been hell on me. I nearly killed myself back in ‘11, but decided to stick around a while longer. Things have been getting progressively worse as the years go on though. In a way I wish my father had never told me about the other letters, maybe I could go on like I had for the previous 20+ years. Maybe it would have been easier to let go, to have accepted things, I don’t know. It’s like finding out about the letters, losing my father, and then seeing Muammar killed so violently all in the matter of a month made something snap in my brain. Like there was all this tension and it was finally released after so many years.

Cont."
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}
public void comments(){
if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766384 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)02:55:05")

"I still think of suicide nearly every day, I manage to work and take care of myself, but knowing that this could be over is always in the back of my mind. It’s such a tempting thing. I was raised Catholic and while I still believe, I’m becoming more and more nihilistic as the years pass. I want there to be a heaven so badly, where I can see him and my son, but after all that’s happened I feel very restless and confused. At the end of the day I suppose even nothing after death is preferable to the way I feel some days. It’s even harder being so completely alone, no one to even say hello to outside of my coworkers and students.

The anxiety attacks started the day I heard about what had happened to him, they haven’t stopped after seven damn years. The doctor prescribed me Xanax and I remember taking one and spacing out. I washed the rest down the drain, I’ll be damned if I end up like my father, masking the pain with drugs. I’ve forced myself to muddle through the anxiety and function. At times I’ve turned to self harm, it’s like when I have all of these jumbled up feelings if I hurt myself they sort of even out and I can go on with my day, it’s weird.

I never had nightmares in my life, but now I have to take Ambien just to rest, most nights I wake up all drenched in sweat shivering. It’s like flashbacks almost, I see him covered in blood, I see myself crying in my dad’s bathroom with blood running down my legs, I see myself being held down by those nurses, it’s like some sort of hell I can’t get away from."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766386 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)02:56:06")

"I’m not sure what’s wrong with me, if anything. Maybe I’m just being a baby, I certainly know there are many people who have had far worse experiences. I just keep going over the what if’s in my mind, how happy my life could have been if things had worked out differently. I remember someone saying that if I had gone with him I’d probably be dead now, that the rebels would have killed me too. Honestly I would have preferred it, to have had years of happiness and then dying beside him vs the pathetic person I am today.

If you read all of this thank you, it’s good to let this go, even in dribs and drabs as it’s been coming out. Talking has helped more than I’d ever imagine."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766425 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)03:15:46")

"Talk to a therapist regularly

Asap"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766432 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)03:20:25")

">>19766382
you are 45? why are you here?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766435 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)03:22:58")

"fake and gay";


if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766444 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)03:29:43")

">>19766432
Why not? I’ve become pretty cynical in the past 7 or so years, 4chan is a good place to find like minded people."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766446 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)03:30:45")

">>19766425
I’m scared to talk to anyone face to face about it. Besides, what could they tell me that I don’t already know?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766452 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)03:32:52")

">>19766446
>I’m scared to talk to anyone face to face about it.
You'd perfer to continue with...your sad life?

>Besides, what could they tell me that I don’t already know?
How to deal with your problems"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766469 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)03:38:46")

">>19766452
Ugh, you have a point. I guess I’m scared of being judged by someone face to face. I just don’t know how much better I could deal with it though, I mean I get by, and I can’t see it getting any better for me."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766472 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)03:41:48")

">>19766469
>Ugh, you have a point.
I do

>I guess I’m scared of being judged by someone face to face.
Talk to them about that fear then

>I just don’t know how much better I could deal with it though, I mean I get by, and I can’t see it getting any better for me.

Find out"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766483 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)03:48:56")

">>19766472
Should I tell them about Muammar? Might that bring up any bias?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766490 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)03:55:25")

">>19766382
Lmao you got memed into using Reddit
Go to a therapist, no one here can actually help you"
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if(Sage && title=="" && postNumber==19766492 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)03:55:48")

">>19766483
>Should I tell them about Muammar?
Up to you
> Might that bring up any bias?
Most professionals have dealt with much worse people than someone who fucked a political figure they might disagree with and have helped them."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766497 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)03:58:28")

">>19766483
>Might that bring up any bias?
Any professional worth the paper their degree is printed on knows that many people do things that carry a stigma in the real world, and they will help you, it's like asking if a nurse would giggle at your private parts, the same way a nurse would be able to handle compromised positions of patients, so could a therapist."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766508 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:02:56")

">>19766490
I figured as much, but it never hurts to try."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766513 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:03:58")

">>19766382
Either you're trolling or you're mentally ill. I highly doubt you had sex with fucking Gaddafi

And why would a grown ass woman talk about this experience of fucking reddit and 4chan of all places? Get the fuck out of here"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766514 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:04:11")

">>19766492
Just my hang up I guess, but you’re right, I’m sure they deal with worse."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766516 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:05:14")

">>19766497
Makes sense, I guess it’s mostly in my mind."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766518 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:06:45")

">>19766513
The reddit link doesn't seem to load for some reason so I don't know if she provided proof there or whatever, but I'm real fucking doubtful as well.
And for the off chance it's real, go see a therapist about it, you will be fine telling a therapist about it, even if it does carry a stigma, they're professionals (at least if you pick a decent one)"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766522 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:08:46")

">>19766513
Mentally ill? Probably.

Because I don’t want anyone knowing who I am obviously, my dad worked in a fairly high level of government. The last thing I need is for his peers to know.

>a woman on 4chan
Please, you’re being ridiculous anon. There’s all sorts of people here."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766525 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:09:29" && image=="young gadaffi.jpg")

"why would that be a problem? Cherish it. You were together, albeit for a short time, with a true man of the people. A dreamer. Someone that believed in his ideals so much that he choose to die for them instead of fleeing the country he had build for the past decades.

Also young gadaffi was really cute, no homo"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766526 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:09:40")

">>19766382
In the reddit thread you talked about getting pregnant, you said you were using birth control in the 4 chan thread. You should be 45 ish though, with your previous timeline

You said you started browsing 4chan at 12, 4 chan was created in 2003 so that would make you 27"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766529 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:09:51")

">>19766518
It’s ok that you are, I mean, it’s a pretty fantastic story. Anyway, take care."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766532 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:11:03")

">>19766526
>>19766382
i'm a retard. How old are you op, your story makes no sense.
>You said you started browsing 4chan at 12, 4 chan was created in 2003 so that would make you 27. You should be 45 ish though, with your previous timeline
That's how it was supposed to look"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766534 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:11:20")

">>19766526
Browsing 4can in 2012, not when I was 12."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766537 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:12:09")

">>19766518
The link loaded and it's sounds like some rubbish fanfiction a kid wrote."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766539 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:12:26" && image=="young gadaffi IV.jpg")

"tell us more about this magnificent hero";


if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766540 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:12:35")

">>19766532
I started lurking here in 2012. I’m 45."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766541 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:12:37")

">>19766534
Oh, like I said, I'm retarded. I guess I believe you, then"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766546 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:15:00" && image=="young gadaffi V.jpg")

">first he fucks you
>then he fucks chad
heh"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766549 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:16:24")

">>19766525
He was a beautiful wonderful human being. I’ll never stop loving him and I’m honored to have known him."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766556 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:21:21")

">>19766539
What would you like to know?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766559 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:22:25")

">>19766541
No problem, it happens."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766563 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:23:30")

">>19766546
Ironic, no?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766568 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:26:37")

">>19766526
And yeah, desu I wasn’t quite ready to share all of that with 4chan, I mean, it’s really hard to talk about. I figured I’d test the water first."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766575 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:28:45")

">>19766556
Did he have ideas about pan Africanism back then?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766582 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:31:34")

">>19766575
Yes, it was 88, so after the green book ect. We didn’t really discuss politics too deeply apart from if I had read it and what I thought of life in the us."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766603 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)04:44:33" && image=="98A61373-A7E0-41CE-B842-ED05A9E0120E.png")

"I’m getting sort of sleepy, so here’s my kik username if anyone wants to keep talking (anna_gaddafi), that way I can respond even if I drift off and the thread is kill. I can reply when I wake up. On kik you can ask me anything if you like. I’ll stick around a little longer though.";


if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19766820 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)06:03:12")

">>19766556

What was the sex like?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19767206 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)09:05:12")

">>19766820
Awesome, he was very skilled."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19767739 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)11:55:07")

">>19767206

Did he jizz in your face?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19767935 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)13:03:35")

">>19767739
No, I swallowed."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19767950 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)13:07:06")

">>19766382
Whenever someone says that he's a shitty person you come back with "he can't be, he was great to me! I knew him!" But you never actually knew him. You met once, and read a bit of a letter. You have to accept that people go deeper than that."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19767957 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)13:08:58")

"tfw no gaddafi bf";


if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19768060 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)13:38:11")

">>19767950
I understand that, I just know he wasn’t this violent sexual deviant that many have made him out to be, at least not to me."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19768063 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)13:39:20")

">>19767957
Story of my life. I miss him."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19768141 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)14:02:17")

"Of all the fucking things I've seen on this fucking site since I transferred here from YTMND in early 2006, this is definitely near the top of the list of bullshit.";


if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19768179 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)14:11:24")

">>19768141
Hey, it’s cool if you don’t believe me! I hope at least it was entertaining."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19768704 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)17:20:13")

">>19766382
First of all, get therapy for this issue and your general feelings of depression. You need to put yourself above how you are afraid someone might see you. Also a lot of general advice about improving yourself and your life seems like it applies to you. More specifically, about Gaddafi, you have to decide what you truly want from life.

It seems to me like you are living in a half state, and that is not a way to live. Based on your inability to let this go and just move on, it seems like love is important to you.

What do you want? If you long for another relationship like that, you should be willing to try dating again. Don't let your bad experiences with 2 men poison you against all men. There are good men out there and you can find them."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19768715 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)17:27:38")

">>19768704
If you are truly committed to having him be the only love of your life, and believe you will be with him and your unborn child again in heaven, and believe what he told you about you being his, then commit to that fully. Right now you are understandably wanting to share something that you had to keep bottled up for years, but I don't think the way you are going about it is best for you in the longterm. Posting details he may or may not have approved of you sharing on social networking sites, posting pictures of yourself in a bikini to prove that you are a woman, feeling all these things you feel for him but keeping it buried most of the time. I am not saying you should feel guilty about this.

If you really believe he is the one true love of your life and want that, as you sometimes make it sound like you do, then you should commit to that fully instead of living this sort of half life. Because he is unfortunately dead, that would make you, essentially, his widow. If you are going to commit to this mindset, I think you will feel better if you act like it fully. Allow yourself to properly acknowledge the role he played in your life.

You said you once didn't kill yourself because you believed it would contradict his religious values. Then take that further. Try to live the kind of good religious life you believe he would have led you in if you had married him. Try to join a religious community. Allow yourself to mourn him. To pray about it. To talk to him as family members sometimes talk to their dearly departed loved ones. Instead of posting about your relationship as you have, try to approach it as a widow might. To be continued"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19768733 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)17:33:30")

">>19768715
You talk about him as though he is the love of your life and you are still in love with him but the way you post about your story doesn't always fit this. "Fucked by" ... Etc. I am not criticizing you. I am saying you may have some cognitive dissonance about this and living in a way that contradicts your feelings will never bring you true happiness.

If you love him, be open about it to yourself and let yourself feel it. You say you don't want to do any media interviews ... Well, what if you were his wife? It wouldn't be about telling everyone about the details of your sex life, would it?

Why not allow yourself to learn and read more about this man and his political and religious views. Why not stand up for him in some way ... The truth about how you see him, not the details of your relationship. Why not try to meet likeminded people? That sort of thing

First you need to decide what you want. If this was just an affair, just an incident that happened in your life, you will never find peace treating him like he is your husband. If you see him as you might see a lost husband you will never find peace treating this as something you should mostly try to forget about. Therapy may help you sort this out"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19768734 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)17:33:42")

"My advice is that should write all your thoughts, your story, and everything, details etc. in some way. You could become a bestseller (and I am not doubting your truthfulnes)

Mingling a love affair with war, a dictator it’s rise and fall, could even get to the screens."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19769188 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)19:44:48")

"Bump";


if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19769193 && dateTime=="07/11/18(Wed)19:47:19")

">>19766382
6/10
good effort, sloppy and overdone delivery. continue to apply yourself and you will be a master b8r one day"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770216 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)01:56:27")

">>19768704
I’ve decided to try therapy, I don’t know if it’ll help, but it’s wotth a try at least.

Love is important, but I’ve decided that I do t want another relationship.

>>19768715
I was raised Catholic and an fairly faithful to my beliefs, but like I said, I’ve become rather nihilistic in these last years.

>>19768733
I am not very prudish about sex, I dont mind talking about it, and I’d probably be laughed off of /b/ for using language any less colorful anyway. If we had married the dynamic would be completely different though.

I’ve read practically all I can about him, I understand his world view. Living where I live you just can’t go out and find other Gaddafi supporters, but I’ve met some.

I certainly look at him as the love of my life, and a husband. But yes there is certainly cognitive dissonance between how I remember him and how others have told me he acted."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770219 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)01:57:46")

">>19768704
>>19768715
>>19768733
Thank you very much for the advice though, it really means a lot to me."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770223 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)02:00:27")

">>19768060
You're doing it again. You know NOTHING ABOUT HIM
NOTHING
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H
I
N
G"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770226 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)02:01:16")

">>19768734
Others have told me this, I think I’m much too shy to, but perhaps one day I’ll relay it to a biographer or historian for posterity.

Ah, a very tragic love story though, no happy ending."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770232 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)02:03:36")

">>19770223
I just know how he was around me, naturally I gather my impression from this experience."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770285 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)02:24:02")

">>19770223
And you wrote his biography? The woman spent the night with him, that’s much more than most ‘experts’ who study his actions."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770311 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)02:36:49")

">>19766386

Of you have no reason to continue living, try to find one, of you still don'y have one, kill yourself injecting air into your veins. I ain't the best person to prevent someone to kill themselves, given that I can't kill myself because I made a promise and sociopaths like me live under our own values. If I had not made that promise I would've killed myself a long time ago."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770329 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)02:46:50")

">>19770311
If I do it I think I’d just go get some Nembutal and overdose, just fall asleep. Easy and painless. I was initially going to shoot myself, but in retrospect I’m glad I didn’t, that would have been bad on my landlord, he’s a nice guy."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770347 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)02:56:35")

">>19769193
I see what you did there lol.

Thanks? I’m not the best writer, especially from memory."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770352 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)03:00:21")

">>19770329

If you think that's enough, do it, by the way, I don't know if he was good or bad, the only thing I know for sure is that he was sorrounded by people like me, if I only was an assistant or counselor of a dictator... All of the power I would have manipulating him to do as I want making him believe it was for the good of the country..."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770364 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)03:05:43")

">>19770329
I recommend an exit bag if you're going to kill yourself.
But seeing a therapist is probably the right call."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770378 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)03:13:21")

">>19770352
Ah, you’re terrible! But I can’t blame you, it’s your nature. He certainly wasn’t bad to me, he was very kind. I love him dearly. Perhaps I’ll go through with it if I ever get worse than I am now. I’ll try therapy first I suppose.

So what would you have talking him into doing? Do you enjoy harming others? No judgement, genuinely curious."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770384 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)03:15:25")

">>19770364
I don’t know, I feel like having something over my head would spook me. I’m not really afraid of pain, but I’d worry about last minute jitters."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770413 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)03:27:26")

">>19770378
>>>19770352 (You)
>Ah, you’re terrible! But I can’t blame you, it’s your nature.

As I told you before, I'm a sociopath, so, by normal standards, yes, I'm scum.

He certainly wasn’t bad to me, he was very kind. I love him dearly. Perhaps I’ll go through with it if I ever get worse than I am now. I’ll try therapy first I suppose.

Yes, try therapy.


>So what would you have talking him into doing? Do you enjoy harming others? No judgement, genuinely curious.

My personality is not the personality of a leader, if I have to take leadership, I can do that, but I consider it a chore, is like King Arthur and Merlin, I'm pretty sure that if they've existed, King Arthur would've done whatever Merlin said.

What would I have him done? Maybe more genocides, obviously of the enemies of the country, and given that a dictator is convinced that his decisions are right, just telling him that not doing what I 'suggest', would be taken as a signal of weakness, some things would be done ordered by myself and blaming my enemies so they could be conveniently eliminated, things like that, where you have the power and the responsability is his, not mine, and when the end is near, lead a coupe d' etat and put the next marionette.

That's what I would do, any relation with the reality is not a coincidence, must be someone like me."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770453 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)03:39:18")

">>19770413
Ah I see. That’s very interesting, no doubt he knew many like you. Thanks for the answer.

I don’t think you’re scum anyway, your brain is different, you are not at fault for that."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770499 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)04:00:09")

">>19770453

I hope you at least find my answer a little reassuring, maybe he had the best of the intentions, but he had to take responsability for what was wrong during his dictatorship, that's one of the things that come with power, but I am pretty sure that most of the ones under his orders are in the government in this very moment.

And in my opinion, yes, for the good of most of the people, the manipulators must be labeled as scum, given that most of the ones fucking up this world are like me, in the shadows, controlling others, just for the amusement of seeing how thousands or millions of lifes are affected by their schemes."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770510 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)04:08:35" && image=="1528354350889.jpg")

">>19766382
Are we seriously talking to a 45-year-old "woman" on 4chan? Are we seriously believing this supposed "woman" slept with Muammar "Gold Dinar" Gaddafi? All right, let's play.

So, OP, assuming that you really are whoever you claim to be, how comes you managed to be fucked up so badly by this one-off experience? I haven't read the /b/ thread, but I've read what you said in this thread and your post on Reddit, and from what I read I gather that your main issue with your life was your father rather than a Libyan dictator. Being a goddamn Catholic might have helped too.

The issue is that you were living with a fucked up junkie, namely your father. Now, I don't know jack shit about you, but I have known several women who have had unhappy love stories, even women who had been raped, and most of them moved on with life; they didn't become the empty shell you seem to be.

From what you say, your father was a relatively high-profile kind of person, you traveled the world, you were probably rather wealthy. Even the way your encounter with Gaddafi played out gives me a "Eyes Wide Shut" kind of vibe. In other words, as a teenager, you lived in a rather fucked up world far removed from the daily experiences of most adolescent girls. I think this is what fucked you up. You cling to Gaddafi because he seemed to you like a ray of hope. You say yourself that you were socially deprived, and Gaddafi just seemed a convenient way out of the world you were living in; he gave you attention, and you wanted to be taken away somewhere else by this handsome foregin man who basically looked like a celebrity to your younger self (teenagers always go after celebrities).

I don't know jack shit about Gaddafi and I couldn't care less about whether or not he was as bad as the media say; but I seriously doubt he got to know his real self by just meeting him one night. You've idealized a minor, trivial encounter and turned it into the main focus of your existence."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770515 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)04:12:22")

">>19770510
>he got to know his real self by just meeting him one night.

*you got to know his real self by just meeting him one night."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770611 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)05:23:22")

">>19770499
Reassuring yes, thank you.

I wish you well even still. Life has this weird way of treating us all, so much we can not control. Take care."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770617 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)05:26:08")

">>19766382
Gaddafi did nothing wrong, be proud."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770621 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)05:29:14")

">>19766382
Why would you call the Colonel a dictator? You know damn well that was just western propaganda."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770630 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)05:35:00" && image=="B3B6D84B-2792-4012-8F19-C7378537DBC6.jpg")

">>19770510
Pretty much this. Some really fucked up stuff goes on behind closed doors in the diplomatic world, but that’s for another thread, another day.

But I suppose you’d have to have been there to understand why I fell in love with him. He was ‘different’, I can’t explain it. Certainly losing your virginity and then becoming pregnant naturally bonds women to their partners, so there’s that as well."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770633 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)05:36:21")

">>19770617
Thank you, I agree. I will always love him dearly, even though he’s gone."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770634 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)05:37:42")

">>19770621
Because that’s how he’s referred to here in the states, he was not authoritarian in any sense of the word while we were together. He was a great leader, an enlightened despot."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770642 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)05:44:00")

">>19770634
>that’s how he’s referred to here in the states

Yeah but that's just the jewish media propaganda. I'm French and here it's become pretty clear now we went to war against Lybia because our president at the time had to cover the fact Kadaffi financed his presidential campaign (he may even face jail for it which has never happened), aswell as because the israeli demanded that we go to war (people like Bernard-Henri Lévy and such). A wide-scale conspiracy.

Anyway it's a sad and moving story if true but you shouldn't believe one word of the horrible things that are said on Kadaffi. I don't know, some may be true but most of the sources are not reliable, and there are people putting great efforts into making him look like a monster."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770643 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)05:44:26")

"Gaddafi literally dindu nuffin wrong.
West feared the Bedouin Bull."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770646 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)05:45:43" && image=="1531210291978.jpg")

">>19770630
>Certainly losing your virginity and then becoming pregnant naturally bonds women to their partners

That sounds very old fashioned even for a woman in her 40s. Nowadays virignity comes a dime a dozen, women give it away without a second though. Same goes for pregnancy and abortion in many Western countries; it's a minor inconvenience."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770653 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)05:48:54")

">>19770642
I agree, I honestly don’t trust any major western news media. I read through the first bits of ‘Gaddafi’s Harem’ and was disgusted, such bs. I guess that’s why I’ve never gone ‘public’ they’d just call him a pervert or something for being with me. I’d hate to see that."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770654 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)05:49:58")

">>19770643
Very true."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770660 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)05:52:25")

">>19770646
I’m just very conservative I suppose, Catholic and all. Feminism has wrecked what it means to be a woman."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770666 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)05:59:16")

">>19770660
You're Catholic but you fuck outside of marriage? Lmao. Worthless slut."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770679 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)06:02:53" && image=="1482969707806.png")

">>19770660
And what does it mean to be a woman, exactly? I'm no feminist, but does being a woman mean being a chattel slave?

I know you've idolized Gaddafi and you ain't gonna listen to reason, but you really can't judge a person on the basis of a single encounter. Most men always seem charming gentlemen at first; it takes time to find out their true colors. And surely Muslims aren't well known in the world for being particularly respectful towards women. But maybe women like you don't want either respect or freedom; maybe women like you just want to belong somewhere and you wouldn't mind being a second or third wife."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770762 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)06:48:56")

">>19770216

Did you do anal? Did Colonel Gadaffi fuck your ass?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770771 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)06:57:10")

">>19770762
Anon asking the tough questions."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770808 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)07:15:48")

">>19770666
>slut
>three sexual partners in 45 years
Ok"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770817 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)07:19:29")

">>19770679
I can agree with that. I’m sure I didn’t get to know him inside and out, one night isn’t long enough to do that. I regret that I didn’t have that opportunity.

I’m naturally submissive, I like being dominated over, I understand this not for all women. That being said feminism is cancer, normalizing a lot of bad things."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770819 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)07:20:36")

">>19770762
Yes, he did."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770821 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)07:21:43")

">>19770771
Kek, what a way to start my morning."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770832 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)07:27:55")

">>19770819
But isn't anal sex considered a sin both by Christians and Muslims? You claim to be Catholic, and Gaddafi championed Islam, yet here you are, taking his dick up your ass.

Why are religious people always so hypocritical?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770854 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)07:40:22")

">>19770832
Depends on who you ask. It isn’t explicitly forbidden in the Bible and some can argue Song of Solomon contains references to it. So it’ll vary from priest to priest. Generally speaking it’s frowned upon.

Yes it’s haram in Islam, I think that’s part of what excited him about it."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770865 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)07:45:55")

">>19770854
>Yes it’s haram in Islam, I think that’s part of what excited him about it

And you're fine with someone who claims to be a Muslim and then goes against his own beliefs because it is "exciting" to do so? This is a 60s counter-culture kind of retardation."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770900 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)08:13:10")

">>19770865
I had no idea what that meant at the time. I was odd, in fact he got down and prayed when the sun began to rise. As an adult I have a habit to not judge, I mean what you believe is between you and God."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19770905 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)08:14:37")

">>19770900
I had no idea what haram meant that is. *It was odd"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19771467 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)13:27:05")

"Bump";


if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19771494 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)13:35:19")

">>19770630
>Some really fucked up stuff goes on behind closed doors in the diplomatic world.

Elaborate."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19771568 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)13:55:28")

">>19771494
Two words anon:

Diplomatic. Immunity.

But yeah, human trafficking (sex slaves, ect.), murder, you name it. I’ve even heard of satanic stuff going on, but I didn’t get exposed to any of it, so I can’t confirm these rumors. My dad had dealers all over the fucking world and a few relations to the Mafia, but I can’t say for sure what or how. I stayed out of his business. Sometimes I’ve wondered if he ‘traded’ me for something and later felt bad about it, and that maybe Muammar felt pity on me and tried to save me from all of that after the fact."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19771923 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)15:57:44")

">>19766382
i want the "nitty gritty details" please"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19771936 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)16:02:14")

">>19771923
You can use kik or pm me on Reddit. I’ll tell you whatever you want to know."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19771964 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)16:11:59")

">>19771936
just found the link on /b/ link, that was sexy as fuck.
Do you think your dad actually sold you off to him for the night?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772019 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)16:29:58")

">>19770329
>bad on my landlord
How so? Because he would have found you or because it would make it more difficult for him to rent a flat where a suicide had taken place? Random question I know."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772076 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)16:50:56")

">>19771964
Ah thanks, lol. Much more happened, but too long for a free text. I was very adventurous sexually, and he enjoyed a curious virgin I suppose.

Perhaps, he had a drug addiction after all. Maybe he realized he fucked up when I became pregnant. I’ll never know what Muammar’s other letters said, so it wouldn’t surprise me if he was trying to hide something from me apart from Muammar low key asking me to become one of his wives."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772086 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)16:53:38")

">>19772019
Eh, both. I mean he likes to check on me every now and again since he knows I don’t have anyone. Plus im sure a hunting rifle would have pained the walls a nice hue of Anna, and I’d hate to think of him having to scrape my brains off of the ceiling."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772089 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)16:54:38")

">>19772076
* for a greentext."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772189 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)17:27:26")

">>19772076
Was your father ever violent towards you? Any sexual abuse? It seems like you looked towards Gadaffi with a paternal air, someone who could better protect you and provide for your needs."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772219 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)17:42:22")

"Christ almighty.

The anon telling you to see a therapist is right, but also
>Write a fucking book
>Gaddafi's 15yo mistress
Become an instant millionaire."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772231 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)17:47:34")

">>19772189
Sexually? No, never. He had one violent outburst with me that I can vividly recall. It was the early 90s and I was living at home and commuting to college daily. There was an assanation attempt against Muammar by Islamic extremist being reported on the news and I sat up and said please turn up the tv. He just flew of the handle screaming at me. I yelled back and he back-handed me across the face, splitting my lip in half. I remember spitting blood into my hands thinking there was so much of it. I ended up with 5 stitches on the inside and outside of my mouth and a black eye. He apologized to me profusely for it. We told the er doctor I fell down."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772250 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)17:52:59")

">>19770216
what do you think of the Green Book. Is it a valid political text?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772269 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)17:56:36")

">>19772219
Do you honestly think people would be that interested? If I ever did it wouldn’t be for financial gain as much as trying to tell people the truth about who he was and how different he’s been portrayed in the West."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772304 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)18:04:11")

">>19772250
I believe so yes. There are a few things I disagree with, like blacks ruling the earth one day with vast empires like the whites of Europe and Northern Africa. That’s a very idealistic view on that race, judging from South Africa and Zimbabwe they seem to be incapable of running anything. Not to sound /pol/-tier, just being honest. He was very optimistic though, wanted to see the good in people I think."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772406 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)18:44:43")

"Random question but ‘Anna’, is that short for something or your whole name?";


if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772429 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)18:51:39")

">>19772269
The people in the west willing to consider him anything but a monster, already think the abomination which was the Libyan invasion was Obama and NATO's biggest and most shameful mistake.

If your story is true, it's most likely truly unique. How many people have been forced to abort Gaddafi's WANTED child, and lived to tell the tale, you think? People would eat that book up in a blink."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772435 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)18:53:42")

">>19772304
At least he kept subsaharasians from flooding Europe"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772441 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)18:55:41")

">>19772406
‘Anna’ is the name Muammar gave me. My given name is Analiese, it’s a family name from my father’s side (my father’s people were Swedish immigrants who settled in Georgia and established a plantation). My family and friends called me ‘Lisie’ (pronounced lee-see) and still do, but I’ve introduced myself to others as ‘Anna’ since ‘88. When he asked my name and I said ‘Analiese’ he just ran with it, always ‘my dearest Anna’ or ‘Anna love’, it was very sweet."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772452 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)19:00:04")

">>19772435
Very true, he believed in Europe for Europeans and Africa for Africans. As it should be."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772503 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)19:20:21")

">>19772429
I became very cynical after the Libyan revolution, it wasn’t easy to accept.

Not many I’d imagine, perhaps I will someday. I hate that my father did that to me, to us. I wanted to have had my son, I wanted Muammar to have known him."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772533 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)19:31:45")

">>19772441
That’s oddly adorable."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772586 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)19:57:17")

"I think you should check out Jordan Peterson's program for writing autobiographies as part of self-healing, and simply OWN this story, no matter how much of a Stockholm Syndrome you might actually be. Consider it a fairytale, and turn it into a supersigil.

I think there's something potentially magnificently beautiful with this story, coming from your perspective. Naive, perhaps, but sincere - something the world hungers for.
Learn to write more eloquently and intriguing, and provide the world with your perspective, and find meaning to your life in the process.

Good luck! Will look out for more posts/10"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772613 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)20:06:21")

">>19772586
Thank you, I’ll definitely check it out.

You actually made me mist up a little, thank you. Perhaps I am naive and see the experience with rose colored glasses, but I can not help but feel the way that I feel. The world could certainly need more love, I wish I could do more to help with that. I’ll try, writing hasnt always been my best skill, but I can try.

Thanks, if you want to keep in touch you have my Reddit username and kik code. Take care."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772738 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)20:51:49")

"wtf is wrong with you I'd be fucking giddy even today if I was a girl and that happened
Gaddafi is fucking based"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19772771 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)21:04:31")

">>19772738
It’s not that it happened to me, I wouldn’t take that back for anything in the world. He was a wonderful lover and I gave my entire self to him, body and soul. My hang up is the regret and hurt about what happened to me afterwards, what my father did to me, keeping him from me."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773092 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)23:30:12")

">>19771568
So pizzagate, do you believe it?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773109 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)23:39:32")

">>19772441
>ANAL-iese
heh"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773116 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)23:42:20" && image=="1BC3CAB2-E621-4163-A9E7-497FFE44BBF7.jpg")

">>19773092
In a way yes. I can say for sure sketchy shit like that goes on in very powerful political circles. And I wouldn’t put it past Hillary, that murderer, I strive not to have hate in my life, but with seething rage I hate her. I remember screaming when she said those words, crying and screaming, woke my neighbors."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773120 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)23:43:56")

">>19773109
Nice, lol. No wonder I enjoyed it so much. But it’s pronounced Anna-lease, silly."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773130 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)23:48:27")

">>19773120
so when did you start coming to 4chan?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773135 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)23:51:34")

">>19773130
Around 2012, 2011 was a bad year for me and somehow I came across /b/ looking at photos of the revolution in Libya. Lurked for years, started posting a couple of years ago."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773142 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)23:53:47")

">>19773135
do you have any links to the b post?
I heard that where the lewdest parts of the story is"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773148 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)23:57:25")

">>19773142
Sure.

https://thebarchive.com/b/thread/771264873/

I didn’t bring up the stuff about me getting pregnant, wasn’t ready to talk about it yet. Wanted to gauge a reaction first.

Lots of other lewdness happened that’s not in the green text. If you want to know use my kik code or Reddit pm and I’ll tell you, since this is a blue board and all."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773153 && dateTime=="07/12/18(Thu)23:58:45")

">>19773148
fck i need to create a kik account/ reddit
love you being so open btw"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773168 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)00:02:21")

">>19773153
Oh my pleasure, I have no hang ups with talking about sex at all, we’re all curious sexual beings, so it’s only natural. If you do just tell me you’re from /adv/ so I know it’s you, feel free to ask me anything you like."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773170 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)00:04:04")

">>19773168
first of all nice tits second of all
are traps gay or not"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773172 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)00:04:39")

">>19773153
It’s better on Reddit/kik anyway, since thread could sage here, and if I fall asleep or something I can get back with you when I’m up."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773175 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)00:05:49")

">>19773170
Thanks.

Traps are gay, but only if you know it’s a trap lol. But hey, I’m not one to judge."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773178 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)00:06:22")

"OP, do you know if Khamis Gaddafi is still alive?";


if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773182 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)00:07:21")

">>19773175
well thank you a lot for answering my questions see you on kik later on today"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773193 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)00:11:36")

">>19773178
No, I was kept from contact with Muammar, so I didn’t know what became of his family during the war. I’d like to hope so, for the sake of my Muammar. I remember he took photos of his children with him on his travels, (family photo was on the nightstand) so he must have deeply loved them. Makes me sad thinking of how he asked for a photograph of me holding our child in his last letter."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773202 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)00:13:22")

">>19773182
My pleasure, if I don’t reply immediately then I fell asleep (it’s midnight in my country), don’t worry I’ll answer when I see it and we can chat then."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773210 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)00:16:42")

">>19773193
That being said even if I did I wouldn’t answer honestly, if he’s alive he’s hiding for good reason. The same way I choose to remain anonymous."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773220 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)00:21:19")

">>19773210
Understood, and I can respect that.

Moussa Ibrahim stated he was alive and I believe him. I hope that him Saif al-Islam and Ayesha are able to return Libya to its former state."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773225 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)00:23:27")

">>19773220
Me too, so deeply I do. Bless them during this difficult time."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773276 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)00:45:09")

"Read OP’s story. Go to look up a video of Kaddafi circa 1988, for educational purposes of course.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=aR9y6yJuREk

>1 min in
> “I know you are the father of six children...”
> “Approximately.”
>Awkward laugh
>Grabs crotch

dat boi."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773299 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)00:53:34")

">>19773276
Ah, he was so handsome. And yeah, that was sort of awkward lol."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773427 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)01:34:15")

"Hi Anna. I had sex with Kim Jong Il. Beat that.


He was very passionate."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773441 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)01:36:38")

">>19773427
Sounds like you beat me! Hmm, he looks like he’d be into some weird kinks. Please tell him that haircut makes him look like a massive faggot."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773445 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)01:37:55")

">>19773441
Fuck, I read Un not Il, lol. I heard he liked to look at things."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773648 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)03:15:22")

">>19773441
I'm kinda curious. You're 45 years old, that's around the age of my mom.

You're on 4chan and Reddit.


Adopt me please."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19773781 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)04:35:05")

"Kek in the /b/ greentext you said he wasn't circumcised
Nice fanfic faggot"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19774585 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)11:22:25")

">>19773648
Yep, I’m an a old lady lol.

And sure anon!"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19774603 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)11:27:40")

">>19773781
I didn’t elaborate, that’s my fault. He was, just not like the the typical American would be. He was partially circumcised, as in they only removed a little bit. Turns out that’s sort of common in some Muslim circles. When I saw a fully circumcised dick I thought it looked wrong."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19774635 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)11:35:33")

"Messaged you on reddit";


if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19774675 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)11:50:40")

">>19766446
A good psychologist or counselor will motivate you by helping you create and see a horizon of dreams and wishes you can strive for that you truly wish to move towards."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19774712 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)12:03:05")

">>19774635
Alrighty great."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19774715 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)12:04:49")

">>19774675
Maybe, at this point I’m sort of lacking in the ‘looking forward to stuff’ category. I think the abiyto have drastically changed my existence is fairly well behind me.>>19774712"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19774719 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)12:06:23")

">>19774715
Didn’t mean to link to the other comment, my bad."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19775883 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)18:44:19")

"Bump";


if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19776093 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)20:05:59")

">>19772231
Fuck, your dad sounds like he was an asshole. No father should ever strike his daughter like that, no wonder you wanted to run away with Gadaffi."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19776311 && dateTime=="07/13/18(Fri)21:21:25")

">>19776093
He had his moments, but I forgive him, he just didn’t know how to raise a daughter."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19776880 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)01:35:10")

">>19766382
You thing you have it bad? I once fucked a dog and not even a female dog."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19776993 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)02:16:08")

">>19776880
Why tho

D-do you regret it?"
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if(The Gaddafist && title=="" && postNumber==19777121 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)03:12:11")

"He is not a dictator.";


if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19777136 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)03:17:43" && image=="BA60A4EC-8FA5-43B2-BEFE-EDE6F37624D9.jpg")

">>19776880
Whew anon, that’s incredibly haram. I’m a bit taken aback.

So I’m just gonna ask the obvious question, pitching or catching?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19777139 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)03:18:48")

">>19777121
I agree, just used that word since it’s most often associated with him in the West. He was a leader, and a damn good one."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19777156 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)03:27:06")

">>19770819

In the b greentext you said you didn't do anal with him, now you're saying you did.

WHICH IS IT, HO? DID HE STUFF YOUR ASS OR NOT?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19777208 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)03:53:55")

">>19777156
He did, I just left it out for brevity, we did lots of stuff. I just put the best parts in the greentext."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19777216 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)03:57:08")

">>19777208
Not to mention I wasnt entirely comfortable telling everything just yet."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19777271 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)05:00:58")

">>19777208
Anal is absolutely haram. Stop larping, go get counseling or something. You're full on delusional, I'm serious.
Stop enabling this woman, she needs serious help."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19777428 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)06:45:08")

">>19777208

What other stuff did you leave out?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778002 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)11:23:19")

">>19777428
Naturally all the non sexual stuff we did, like taking a bath together, dancing to a song on the radio, ect.

Sexually? Making out, lots of heavy petting, anal, we tried paizuri, which was pretty awesome from my POV."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778033 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)11:35:21")

">>19777271
I know it is, he said it was, though I didn’t know what that meant at the time. He said his wife wouldn’t do it because it was ‘dirty’. Also isn’t swallowing sexual fluids haram? Anyway people do things that are ‘wrong’ in the heat of intimacy, that’s human nature. It was a sin for me, as a Catholic, to be having pre-marital sex, to be having sex with an already married man. But I did it, nobody is perfect."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778528 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)15:01:47")

">>19778033
Get help, you’re delusional. I’m saying it out of empathy."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778535 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)15:04:32")

">>19778033
And why wouldn’t you include that dialogue in your RP fantasy? You included every single moaning and irrelevant conversation piece but you forgot to mention this (which IS a big deal) until you got called out. GET HELP, WOMAN"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778539 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)15:06:51")

">>19767935
>46 y.o. cumming inside 15 y.o. girl's mouth

fugg"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778550 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)15:14:19")

">>19778535
I had made a previous thread discussing the incident and the Reddit post for more serious discussion, the /b/ Post was for those asking me for a blow by blow of the sex.

I am, I think I probably do need to talk to a therapist, I mean that’s probably the best thing anyway."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778555 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)15:15:21")

">>19778528
Thank you for being empathetic, but how am I being delusional?"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778567 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)15:20:12")

">>19778550
And honestly we didn’t discuss his polical Theory, the conversation wasn’t groundbreaking, we talked mostly about me."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778582 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)15:24:30")

">>19778539
I enjoyed it, it made me happy, making him feel good."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778609 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)15:30:18")

">>19778550
You offer absolutely no proof whatsoever, the haram thing would’ve been in context with the sex story, come on now. Stop trolling"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778615 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)15:32:34")

"Thread will probably reach bump limit soon, I’ll stay around till thread is kill, but if anyone wants to keep talking use my kik code/Reddit username.";


if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778616 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)15:32:38")

">>19778567
What does political theory have to do with an anal sex and blowjobs conversation? Stop posting and try healing"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778625 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)15:36:18")

">>19778609
All I have for proof is my scars from where I pulled out my IV and from where my father backhanded me across my face. But yeah, I was initially reluctant to tell everything, it’s been coming out in pieces."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778626 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)15:36:29")

">ywn experience something this passionate

kill me already"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778630 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)15:38:24")

">>19778616
I thought anon was grilling me for some sort of substantial deep conversation during sex, naturally there was none."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778642 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)15:42:07")

">>19778626
Aw anon, don’t think that way. If it’s any consolation I’ve only experienced it one and never will again."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778846 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)16:57:03")

">>19778582
>curious and willing loli wants older man

Hhhnnng"
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19778870 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)17:08:23" && image=="316870F5-6E24-4620-8F5E-E7C88118522B.png")

">>19778846
Yep, I was about 5’2” 96 lbs. and waifish. I had boobs though, so yeah."
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if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19780253 && dateTime=="07/14/18(Sat)23:58:01")

"Bump";


if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19780267 && dateTime=="07/15/18(Sun)00:04:53")

"can u prove your dad was who u say he was? what was his name?";


if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==19780335 && dateTime=="07/15/18(Sun)00:30:43")

">>19780267
I’m not going to reveal any info that would get me identified anon, that’s for my personal safety."
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}
}