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int postNumber = 35529994;
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String date = '04/25/24(Thu)13:15:53';
String comment = 'I resent not being naturally feminine. I've felt disgusted with my own body since I was about 10 years. I didn't really figure things out until it was kind of already too late and I feel really sad and bitter about it. I still hate my body. I want to lose weight, remove all my body hair, and flood my body with estrogen. I haven't yet... and I fear it might be too late to try';
'>>35529994
How old are you? also women naturally grow hair on their legs too';
'>>35529994
are u atleast rich yet';
'>>35530009
>How old are you?
just hit 30... embarrassingly enough
>>35530015
>are u atleast rich yet
I'm extremely poor';
'>>35530032
>just hit 30... embarrassingly enough
RIP
on the other hand, being this indecisive means you're probably low-T and still have a chance';
'>>35530049
>being this indecisive means you're probably low-T
I'm an indecisive neurotic mess';
'>>35529994
I'm the same as you.
I resented myself for being this way, and have been envious of every cis girl imaginable AND every small framed guy throughout my entire life. I always knew that someone like me just couldn't ever be feminine, so I avoided it as much as I could despite wanting nothing more in life.
When I found out about transition and HRT, it was already really too late, but I immediately cracked and went for it. I ordered DIY, moved away from my parents, lied about going to college and used the money for hormones and rent, shaved my body, lost 80 lbs, got a job that offered insurance for surgery, made new friends, got onto prescription HRT, got a therapist that specialized in trans issues, and eventually after all of the struggle- received two major gender affirming surgeries.
It wasn't enough. My bones since puberty have always just been far beyond the average. My height was already in an awful range for transition, but my frame was the actual killer. HRT and fat distribution and surgery just could not overcome the lengths and angles that my masculine frame possesses.
Not all of our stories are happy endings, so you really have to decide for yourself realistically how much you think you can gain from this before you throw your life away like I did.
I don't regret transitioning or starting HRT or getting surgery for even a moment, but I do regret what it's done to my life. I do regret continuously failing the only thing that has ever mattered to me in my single existence on this planet. It hurts to constantly be stumbling over myself and missing out on life experiences because I was so stubborn in chasing femininity that I could never hope to catch.
I do recommend you transition, if you are indeed suffering from gender dysphoria/are trans. There is no other alternative. However, just know that if your starting point is indeed pretty awful, it isn't going to save you.
Nothing in this world will, unfortunately.';
'>>35530098
you've given me a lot to think about. Thanks sis';
'Op I'm begging you to not transition! You will end up looking like a turbo hon and it will be bad optics for people like me who just wanna stealth and enjoy our teens and twenties';
'>>35531195
Why are you like... this bad of a person?';
'>>35531305
lots of people in this world are just bad people
look around you at whats happening';
'>>35531673
sad but true';
'>>35529994
I understand why you chose Mako-chan as the thread image.';
'>>35529994
In the same situation and age. Didn’t even know HRT and non-hon trans existed until my mid 20s and I repressed then thinking I could just man up or something. I just recently re-started HRT after quitting last year from social anxiety and being overwhelmed by transitioning. Don’t known if I’ll ever pass but I don’t plan on being a hon, so I’ll manmode or detrans if there no hope of passing.';
'>>35534016
>In the same situation and age. Didn’t even know HRT and non-hon trans existed until my mid 20s
Until I was 19 I legit thought that the trans women I'd come across in adult media were just born that way or it was all just crazy amounts of surgery. I wish I had known about/ had access to hrt back then';
'>>35529994
Did you finally understand that being something you're not won't help with your esteem isues and self-image?';
'>>35534433
I'm not sure if you just don't understand of if this is an attempt at transphobia';
'>>35533030
I really related to her';
'>>35530009
>also women naturally grow hair on their legs too
Guy leg hair is like a million times worse though';
'>>35537180
I mean if you're a trans woman then yeah, of course';
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