'prev: >>11409569

not giving up this until you say straight to my face that you don't want me anymore

i may have said dumb shit during a mental breakdown (which I haven't had in a long time...)

but
try and address these posts pls:
>>11425690
>>11425691
>>11425693
>>11425694';

'repost

l hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly l hate the way l don't hate you;
Not even close;
Not even a little bit;
Not even at all.

*cries*';

'jjh';

'major depressive episode while you still won't tell me what's going on. i love it...';

'love laying in bed dead inside feeling unloved but only for a few hours before i have to go break my back at work and deal with dad forcing me to talk to him..';

'Y43w';

'>>11437398
i bought sour apple rings and put them on my dick but wehn i get big they keep ripping

Your fortune: Good news will come to you by mail';

'I don't have photos of it with me right now, but there's actually a dent over my bedroom wall from a mental breakdown I had. I was laying in bed, and I got so fucking hurt, sad, humiliated, upset, angry, suicidal at how you're just leaving me alone, ignoring my cries for help to relocate as zp just gets free reign from you to abuse me every time I show up in the threads just because I want to hang out with you. I was screaming at the top of my lungs because it's so fucking painful, living like this is fucking hell. Parents obviously heard me, thankfully didn't put me in a mental institution, and mom gave me a small edible to help soothe me.

another mental breakdown, it involved me screaming and banging my head the same way, punching and scratching myself, only this time, I threw my pair of glasses across the room and destroyed it. Had to spend hundreds of dollars to replace it.

There were so many times where I was genuinely a threat to my own life just from driving a CAR, whenever I was outside somewhere, I legit got so panicky when I had to hop back in, as I was having such constant extreme paranoid fits with you refusing to listen to me, you abandoning me to zp spreading lies about me everywhere calling me a pedophile and screaming slurs at me all the time, while your only response is "it's tough love,maybe you can suck his cock one day :3 :3 :3" and trying to fuck him even though you're supposed to be loyal to Narwhal Bacon. I screamed at the top of my lungs in my car while other people nearby. I kept having tearful meltdowns while riding with dad to work. I was soooo close to swerving into a wall and crashing to my death. It is only because of my added paranoia of potentially surviving, and thus destroying my dad's only transportation like an asshole, that I would up resisting, but it was so difficult..

(continued)';

'>>11425658
Oh! You want to talk about me getting therapy?

Let me TELL YOU about me!! getting!! therapy!!

Remember when I lashed out at you for an entire night in wpop thread, sometime in the middle of last year?

After that I felt really really bad about it, and this, the vast majority of 2023's latter half, I actually had pills that helped a great deal! I just didn't like the side-effects, but I was hoping you would at least appreciate the effort I was putting on to be better, and see that it's now paying off!

But nope.. you didn't give a shit
You still kept saying I've "never changed"

As for zp, you didn't give a shit about my trauma one bit.

Couldn't be bothered to take my pills anymore. Why endure all these side effects when you're going to keep devaluing me as a person literally no matter what I do or how hard I try

I was HOPING with my pills, you would finally be willing to reward me, and relocate me away from the abuser causing me harm, and we could finally be free and living peacefully in our friendly company having fun, safe from the bullies...

BUT NO.
I'M THE ONE YOU ENDED UP ATTACKING INSTEAD.

INSTEAD OF GETTING ANGRY AT MY ABUSER, YOU GOT ANGRY AT *ME* FOR GETTING ABUSED AND FEELING UPSET ABOUT IT.
YOU ATTACKED ME, YOUR FRIEND WHO HAS LOVED AND CARED ABOUT YOU SINCE DAY ONE, IN DEFENSE OF A MONSTER WHO LITERALLY HATES YOU.

>"stop weaponizing your abuse"

IT'S NOT WEAPONIZING ABUSE WHEN YOU YOURSELF ARE PERSONALLY IMPLICATED IN MY PROLONGED EXPOSURE TO SAID ABUSE.

OH MY GOD...';

'*calms down*

so
hope you realize how considerate i was genuinely trying to be when i was sparing you from hearing my vents... :((';

'Why are you pointing back to your original older thread if it is just literally a copypasta of this one?

There is literally no point unless the content changes.';

'Kii8';

'Hello, it's me
I was wondering if after all these years you'd like to meet
To go over everything
They say that time's supposed to heal ya, but I ain't done much healing

Hello, can you hear me
I'm in California dreaming about who we used to be
When we were younger and free
I've forgotten how it felt before the world fell at our feet

Hello, how are you
It's so typical of me to talk about myself, I'm sorry
I hope that you're well
Did you ever make it out of that town where nothing ever happened?

It's no secret that the both of us
Are running out of time

So hello from the other side
I must've called a thousand times
To tell you I'm sorry for everything that I've done
But when I call, you never seem to be home';

'if you're watching out there, I'm cooled down now. stop hating me pls...';

'hu';

'>>11439315
I would give my post number but I don't know it yet

Your fortune: You will meet a dark handsome stranger';

'.';

'I hate discord threads

Your fortune: Godly Luck';

'here.
yes, i was busy with a lot… discovered some surprising things about myself..

i hope you didn’t jump to too many conclusions or panicked while i was gone..
:c';

'i hope u guys are ok';

'>>11440240
biggest hug';

'did i do all of that, of course i did
i'm awfuullll.';

'go eaaaaaasy on me when writing your condemnation on my posts above, friend

we're so close to finally resolving all those pent up feelings right now, once and for all';

'undefined';

'would like to make more silly posts now, to increase the levity

idk, my mindset is usually that it'd be weird for me to post goofy random nonsense when there's still much more important, or much darker posts you have yet to reply to or be outraged at, so i tend to post nothing in these moments

your thoughts?';

'undefined';

'snorting like a pig to myself has helped a tiny bit with intrusive thoughts lately :&)';

'https://twitter.com/riomat7/status/1778182259125985776?t=R-4oVxx06sUnydnKiK7tUA&s=19';

'>>11440240
hug again
thanks for making this post.
you never had to talk extensively every day, just leaving a quick message like this does wonders in showing you at least still care';

'kl';

'talked to someone who DMs me sometimes just now

there's always someone out there who has it so much worse than you that makes you wanna appreciate what you got more (and makes you feel pitiful in how you can't help :( )';

'undefined';

'undefined';

'Eyjt';

'think after all this is done >>11437407...

we should just post our closing statements to finish it all off, then agree on terms for reconciliation...

okay plan?';

'Touch me, I'm trying
To see inside of your soul

I've got this thing
I want to make a correction
I'm not like this all the time

You've got this thing...
You've got this thing...

Do I know you from somewhere
Why do you leave me wanting more
Why do all the things I say
Sound like the stupid things I've said before';

'undefined';

'can d*nzposting just stay dead already, good god';

'great, now i'm getting manic and need to hide in the bathroom crying again

still so bothered that me not being made clear that you wanted to talk more on s4s first before setting up our discord again thus resulting in me writing a short introductory post, was somehow "proof" that i didn't enjoy talking to you or even wanted to talk to you, even though I've been going through hell for years because I've wanted to talk to you so bad

and then prompted you to write a long rant about how much of a horrible uncaring person i am and have always been, and parading to me that you didn't need to be around a wretch like me anymore, since you already have an incredible partner who's letting you live the glorious life I could've been living with you instead.

leave me here a little bit longer
i think I wanna stay in the car
i don't want anybody seeing me cry now
You say, "We gotta look on the bright side"
I say, "Well, maybe if you wanna go blind"
You say my eyes are getting too dark now
But boy, you ain't ever seen my mind

and for your consideration, by the time you read this, i'll probably be perfectly fine, so please try not using this post to judge my mental cognition when you arrive here :)';

'undefined';

'hope your new discoveries weren't too bad... or god forbid life-threatening for you...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8AECXHYgRgI&si=IFoF1oIdp31Dtt1X';

'jhhjjh';

'HJJ';

'Uu1k1l1';

'kjiuhih';

'tanbz still asking me "when's mommy coming home?" whenever i take him to the playground swingset...';

'undefined';

'Syau1i';

'*cries in alcohol-induced loving admiration for everything about your personality and how it wound up being ripped away from me*';

'bvnb';

'hj';

'>>11445149
tea fren quit tha booze it doesn't suits you try some lemon energy drink perhaps and lots of water';

'>>11438478
Appuru Ringo! Ringo no Ringo!';

'mhmhhh';

'morning, bear
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Tqy6be0Juc&si=vBCUGkNxDP5nfK_J';

'Ygr';

'>"we both know that [leaving me with zeep is] not what i want."

>says and does nothing whatsoever to affirm you're telling the truth
>jumps straight to saying hurtful things about me';

'ssshhh... other side of my personality, settle down...';

'what is the purpose of this thread besides obnoxiously airing dirty laundry from discord publicly?
Just whine about drama there. we dont need to deal with this vauge obnoxious necrobump bullshit killing good threads.
at least post the server link if you aint a coward.';

'T3h3';

'hujk';

'Yyytt';

'kjjkjk';

'hjhjjk';

'When a fighter walks out to either Janet Jackson or Mariah Carey you just know they're going to fuck someone up.';

'cool, but when they walk out to la isla bonita they're going to MURDER you!!!';

'Jjsjqhq';

'Ajqj1p';

'De235';

'finally gave in utero a second listen
holy hell...';

'jqhjqhjqh';

'I've given In Utero a hundred listens and every time was trash';

'>>11440944
unchecked doubles on the last page!';

'kjjkjkjk';

'"I was very angry a lot of the time back then, and that was reflected in that album. I suddenly realized that we can die at any moment, and we'd be judged by the last thing we left behind. I didn't want that angry, bitter thing to be the last thing. I learned from that album, but I don't want to go back.”
.

tl;dr no more being mean :)';

'Rewqqs';

'Jwiq1o';

'Kslqoq';

'Stjjwt';

'Jakqoq';

'surprisingly wonderful mood tonight!';

'juik';

'jkkkjui';

'JakJakJakJak';

'Took a long time
Breaking myself down
Building myself up
Repeating it';

'undefined';

'5ewwq';

'Ge22qd';

'https://youtu.be/lWqJTKdznaM?si=6n9pvImZa7AfQ_zu';

'every second I have to stare at another zp post i start boiling up and resenting each of your absences so much more

seriously where are you';

'*breaks down into tears*';

'undefined';

'1 year, 4 1/2 months...
that's how long the prison sentence you gave me has been now...

soon to be 1 year, 5 months.

the moment you deleted yourself, i already learned my lesson in less than a couple days that my behavior has consequences and you could've let me free right after, you even said that all you needed was "some time and space" so things would be better soon

but no..

couldn't have just been one month
couldn't have just been six months
nine months
1 year..
it just has to keep going forever...

no thoughts about how much suffering it has been for me or all the mental breakdowns I've had because of this situation you put me in

no care to actually put in effort to HELP make things better again.

just isolation. leaving me alone, refusing to talk to me to let me share my perspective, and not raising a finger to help from the abuse i suffered in the hole.

just "waiting" for me to change. that's the only plan you ever have for literally everything.

waiting waiting waiting for me to become perfect for you.

Never taking any real action to inspire said change.

Never even telling me EXACTLY what I'm supposed to change and leaving me blind for LITERALLY A YEAR, as I've spent all that time doing everything I could to better myself, but no you just completely ignored all my efforts.

but hey, at least you fulfilled your original purpose of deleting your account to prevent yourself from cheating, right? :^)';

'boy, aren't you glad you rejected my "discord ASAP" request and have us live happily ever after away from this website, so you can instead scold me for not doing more talking in these threads first... only for you to... NOT do more talking in these threads?';

'anyways i'll feel better later. lay off judging me as evil again because of these posts.

hey, man, we all can't be like you
i wish we were all rose-colored too
my rose-colored boy';

'https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xkwi8N7Ghw8&si=SiIWc-FqMWG5fpdA';

'Ye3w';

'eeffeef';

'hjhk';

'Jwfj2tu2';

'Tr322e';

'2hqe';

'Y2u1';

'Uwjq';

'qe';

'89';

'undefined';

'Kkutd';

'Uwhq1';

'Thiiyr';

'undefined';

'last pic was a joke, don't use it as evidence for "seee this is why I can never be friends with you!!!" ughh';

'this one's me tho :)';

'Yrwq';

'>how long has this thread been up for?
>10 days?
>...
>...';

'jkkjj';

'Ksw';

'>>11440240
wish i could be there with you right now and stick by through all your issues *hugs*';

'Ajqj1';

'Kskqo1';

'undefined';

'undefined';

'someone other than myself who is not only smarter and wiser, but also has better priorities in life would stop bothering bumping a thread like this and holding onto you

but i can't. i really care about you, and given something seems to have happened right after you started therapy, so it might be genuine! so i'll keep this promise >>11437407


only problem is... that was the exact same rationale i had when i refused to give up on you during 2022 even with your ghosting...

i really hope what's happening now isn't just a repeat...';

'I'm fed up of seeing these sugary hoops!
So I am finally entering this thread to ask what the big deal is!
TELL ME RIGHT NOW';

'2u1u';

'7ququ';

'Sooqlqp1';

'Oou';

'>>11457583
Hote

Your fortune: You will meet a dark handsome stranger';

'2u1u';

'jkj';

'undefined';

'Htre';

'@u';

'Retarded thread';

'Mn';

'Jai1';

'few';

'Y the w2';

'Jjtw';

'Uurr';

'undefined';

'2u1h';

'jkkhg';

'kjh';

'Uqru14';

'zeep still bringing me up for no reason
multiple incels posting misogynistic shit about every artist featured

i'm so glad you abandoned me just so you could hand out with these people and forced me to talk personal things with you in front of these people';

'hang out*';

'i've literally been trying to tell you
my breakdowns, crying in the bathroom, lashing out, could've literally all been fixed by now if you had just added me back earlier. no more worries about anything like this anymore, i could finally just move on

but you decided it was "proof" that i'm immature and thus the best solution is to... keep making it worse by keeping me trapped here FOREVER';

'except i can't even cry in the bathroom now because the fuckin' janitors are here to vacuum and sweep';

'>>11440240
watch this pls
explains a lot about me
https://youtu.be/OHSXRYHbufQ';

'The spoojags are wendledon';

'Jakq';

'Biedor or No Biedor Island (2).exe';

'should just wipe this thread, start new, and pick WAY back up from last interaction, tbqh';

'https://twitter.com/squirtstain/status/1782869193760608283?t=O0v22WgQpgV7m0PBT27ORA&s=19';

'vcb';

'>>11437398
*Glitch in the matrix*
I swear my roommate recently said this to me!.....… Weird';

'jkm';

'mkji';

'may take leftover medications again for a while';

'undefined';

'Jakqqo';

'undefined';

'>>11465602
omg likr frarl';